like tsunami like that. a while ago, it will be calm and smooth.
then it will suddenly fluctuate.
and then suddenly go back to normal again.
started with ironing the uniform.
how can anyone have such an emotional reaction to the
sch uniform? i agree.
but unfortunately i was such a person.
i never ironed my mjc uniform so fast before.
trying hard to keep the tears from falling.
but after a while,
i feel like normal again.
and then seeing his classmate at harbourfront.
in a circumstance i didnt want.
that might create problems.
but oh WTH. doesnt matter anymore anyway.
i didnt talk long. felt bad. but i was really scared
she will mention him.
and i dunno how i will react.
shall not cry in some random mrt/outdoor location.
im sick of it.
so i avoided her.
and then. today i passed by simei again.
mum was chatting with me,
and as it approached simei.
i could consciously feel myself
breaking apart inside.
slowly and silently,
without mum knowing.
i only felt better after we passed by simei.
it was as if i could actually breathe again,
and as if i held my breathe through the
whole station.
dont know why my emotions keep switching
these days. but i guess its far better than long
termed emo bouts. at least this is short,
and doesnt take long for me to recover.
heard this on tv today :
不要哭。
在哭就代表你还爱他，
你还想他。
so does it mean if i dont anymore,
this doesnt apply?
i dont think so.
unfortunately.
i wish life was like 1231,
true or false.
simple and straightforward.
no gray areas.
